"If nothing ever changed, there would be no butterflies."
This is one of my absolute favorite quotes EVER! To start this blog, I need to first, start at the beginning. It will explain who I am and how I got here and yes, it has everything to do with my beautiful little quote above.
Fourteen and a half years ago my beloved mama passed away. She was a larger-than-life character, a fiery spirit, a true presence...my best friend and my biggest fan. At the time of her death I was planning my wedding to John, my true love and soulmate. Needless to say, my heart was broken into a million pieces. A part of me died with her on that day in May, but from this incredible loss, God gave many blessings and signs. But now I am getting ahead of myself.
To honor her on my BIG day I released monarch butterflies outside in front of the church at the end of the ceremony. My pastor talked about the butterfly being a symbol of eternal life and about my mom, Red as she was called for her auburn hair and firecracker personality. All of those beautiful creatures fluttered away in every direction except ONE. That special creature landed right on my dress which just happened to be over my heart. I plucked it up and away ever so gently and watched in amazement as it flew in an arc and landed in exactly the same spot as it had seconds before. A coincidence? I think not! The second time I repeated this action I felt certain of the outcome, but no, I was wrong. My new friend obviously wasn't ready to leave just yet...a life lesson even then...everything in its own time...God's time...not mine. John and I cried. Our friends and family cried. God had shown His grace and given us a monumental sign. Red was there with us. I knew she would be.
I touched those feathery wings for the third time, gave it a quick kiss and helped it on its journey towards the heavens. Just as the sun was fading, I watched it fly away. Once again, my life was changed forever. My broken and wounded heart received a few stitches from God.
Countless times butterflies have visited me since that day so long ago. I plan to use this blog to share those stories. I also want this blog to be a tiny spot in the universe where I can share the things I LOVE...stories about family and friends, music, recipes, poetry, dance, books, art, ideas, etc. A space TO BE ME!!!!!
Ahhhhhhh, the possibilities!!!!!!
Love, Mel
Your mama, your Red, is so proud of the fine and incredible woman you have become. She smiles at you every moment of every day. I love you so, my sweet friend.
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